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Jax Teller Quote: SOA Season 5, Episode 5

"IT’S HARD NOT TO HATE. PEOPLE, THINGS, INSTITUTIONS. THEY BREAK YOUR SPIRIT AND TAKE PLEASURE IN WATCHING YOU BLEED. HATE IS THE ONLY THING THAT MAKES SENSE. BUT I KNOW WHAT HATE DOES TO A MAN: TEARS HIM APART, TURNS HIM INTO SOMETHING HE’S NOT— SOMETHING HE PROMISED HIMSELF HE’D NEVER BECOME. THAT’S WHAT I NEED TO TELL YOU: I WANT TO LET YOU KNOW HOW HARD I’M TRYING NOT TO CAVE UNDER THE WEIGHT OF ALL THE AWFUL THINGS I FEEL IN MY HEART. SOMETIMES MY LIFE FEELS LIKE A DEADLY BALANCING ACT; WHAT I FEEL SLAMMING UP AGAINST WHAT I SHOULD DO. IMPULSIVE REACTIONS, RACING TO SOLUTIONS, MILES AHEAD OF MY BRAIN. WHEN I LOOK AT MY DAY, I REALIZE THAT MOST OF IT WAS SPENT CLEANING UP THE DAMAGE OF THE DAY BEFORE. IN THAT LIFE, I HAVE NO FUTURE. ALL I HAVE IS DISTRACTION AND REMORSE. I BURIED MY BEST FRIEND THREE DAYS AGO, AND AS CLICHÉ AS THIS SOUNDS, I LEFT A PART OF ME IN THAT BOX— A PART I BARELY KNEW, A PART I’LL NEVER SEE AGAIN. EVERY DAY IS A NEW BOX, BOYS. YOU OPEN IT, YOU TAKE A LOOK AT WHAT’S INSIDE. YOU’RE THE ONE WHO DETERMINES IF IT’S A GIFT OR A COFFIN."